2 Yrs Sober — Grace/Mercy/AA/❤
“My name is Jesse, and I am an alcoholic”
I read the preamble for the AA meeting. The room was warm in the basement of St. Luke’s church as everyone had their heads turned in my direction. The air vibrated with the stationary fans doing their best to keep us in a relaxed state.
After putting it off, I was finally going to Alcoholics Anonymous.
Two years ago, I found myself in a place of fear. After getting cornered by my own decisions, I closed my eyes and felt how scared I truly was. Floating high above myself that night, I looked down at sick person who was underweight and who didn’t love himself. My heart broke.
I don’t know if my dissociative moment saved me entirely or if I would eventually get to the same conclusion regardless but that is when the switch flipped for me.
After an incredibly difficult first year of sobriety both physically (the beginning) and then emotionally, I found myself in the strange territory of the 2nd year. I was comfortable in my sobriety as far as managing my day to day without any big changes upending that. But the reality was, those changes had to arrive.
My hobbies took priority as did time with the friends I had entrusted with my particular state. I wasn’t going out that much but spent time with friends how I liked to in small…
